OHAI This is a blueprint for a RP that I'm co-gming. It's a Fairy Tales rp, sooooo basically I had to come up with a shitty blueprint for it...cause ya know...can't come up with anything good...it's a RP. OH MAN
I'm so excited though, my friend Acktoo and I have been working on it for about a month I think? But myes, it's our brain child. And it's awesome. End. Point.
This is just so that I can have access to all of my avatars from one place because it sucks when you get an avatar from the internet and then they take it down and you're stuck with a "imageshack/photobucket/etc image cannot be found" instead of your lovely avatar. :<
This chika's mad cool. I love how she can pull off the pixie cut and not look like she's out to get some girl on girl action. I mean, just because a girl gets a boy cut or just a short haircut in general,, it doesn't mean that they're in for the same sex relationship. GAH
Monday, May 10, 2010
The original art was done by madart84, and I edited it to make it the cast of the Lunatic RP peeps :D Hurr hurr So proud...not. ANYWAYS I excluded Isarabi because she's too slutty. And of course, she's my character lol
Oh man, this guys is smoking hot. He did exceedingly well in Iron Man 1 and 2 (which I just saw the second last night), and in Sherlock Holmes, I think he did remarkably well to bring Holmes to the real people.
The sucesses of RDJr. makes me look forward to the next movies that he'll no doubt take up. Just thought that I'd mention all of this because I was so thoroughly inspired by Iron Man 2 last night. It really makes me want to ask "What's next, RDJr.?"
Alrighty, sorry for the long ass hiatus. Anywhoo, I'm sick again. The quick change of weather that we're having is making my body rebel. I've been downloading a ton of music lately, and making playlists. I have over 50 playlists so far...
I've also been cleaning out my house/computer. :D It's always good to do late spring cleaning! I spring clean in winter, I'm so good. Does my room ever stay clean? Never. But that's besides the point.
Still jobhunting: it's horrible out there. Making a resume really does help, and it's a lot simpler than one would think. I assumed that a resume would take copious amounts of time. But apparently potential employers don't want a gajillion page resume. They only want one page...ONE PAGE!!! I mean, I'm a writer, obviously, but this is a little crazy. It's hard sometimes to fit everything that you want an employer to know about yourself in one page, including employment history. Sometimes that can take up a whole page by itself! Anyways, time to stop grouching. I was just glad that I didn't have to fill out lengthy applications if I sent in a nice one page resume :D
I don't mind jobhunting, but I really wish that the economy would pick up. How are you guys taking this economy slump? Not taking as many vacations? Working more when you're sick to pay for those doctor's bills or insurance? Not buying as extravagant gifts? I don't know. XD Some people spend more to alleviate their economy depression. Kind of defeats the purpose, but at the same time maybe not. If people spend money for US made goods, that'll help take away business from China and other countries that we rely on heavily for manufacturing, then maybe our economy will look up. Either that or another world war.
Seriously, if you look back at the world wars, you'll notice that the US's economy picked up GREATLY afterwards. Mostly because we were forced to rely on ourselves during those wars because we can't trust the other nations.
Just talked with my faja, and we wound up remembering one problem about this idea: atomic bombs. The last world war, the US was the only country with them...yeah. So basically things wouldn't work out too well if we were to start another world war. Unless we somehow steal all the other countries' nuclear weapons and send them out of this galaxy or something of the like. Which is highly unlikely.
Well, jobs have been hard to come by, and I just got a call back from Applebee's. Normally I wouldn't think that it would be a big deal, but I've been unemployed for far too long, so I jumped at the opportunity. After the first interview, I got the second two days later, so now I'm just waiting to hear from them. If, in two weeks, I haven't heard from them, then it means that I'm still jobless...fun.
SO, back to the good stuff: Insomniaaaa Yes, the monster's thriving very well. As a matter of fact, I went to the second Applebee's interview with three hours two nights before...so I was running on negative 20 hours of sleep. It went surprisingly well, even though I probably looked like a Zombie. I really didn't care that much, not surprising. So I've gotten into the habit of sleeping for 3-4 hours, and then waking up at 2 or 3 in the morning and finding myself unable to get back to sleep. It's like my body's saying "You just slept...you don't need more! Shut up!" So here I am, at 2:19 in the morning, typing a blog entry. I know I'm not the only one doing this either. Blegh, I'm going to fix this eventually. One of these days. I'd prefer not to use medication...actually, I'd rather lose a leg than take meds. (and for those of you that don't know, I am an exercise enthusiast, so losing a leg would be disastrous, not to mention extremely depressing.)
On the note of Video Games, I've been playing a game for the nintendo DS: Rune Factory: A Fantasy Harvest Moon. I beat it for the first time since I've owned the game, because I actually got past this crazy cave section in the game that was only available in winter. Needless to say, it made me feel pretty cool and beastly...till I found out that there was another Rune Factory that you could play the part of a female for once, and that it was already out. That, and the fact that a lot of people have already beaten both games and were sitting on their asses salivating for the third Rune Factory to get to the US. So, after my not-so-satisfying game beat-down, I looked in my collection for another unbeaten game that was begging for it. I found Harvest Moon: Island of Happiness. This game is cute, but I dislike the fact that all of the characters are chibi... If I wanted to look cute I'd be into cooking mama or something like that. (Despite my addiction to cooking and food in general, I still don't like games that are about cooking food...I'd rather go to the kitchen and actually cook food so I could eat it. It's a little crazy considering the fact that I read manga that's all about cooking, chefs, gourmets, sports etc, when I'd rather be doing all of those activities..but I digress.)
I really liked, in Rune Factory, how the art and design was beautiful, even if the characters were too young looking for my liking. I'd prefer a more mature-looking cast in my opinion. Just saying, I don't really go for the pedo-lookers, that's kind of weird for me.
On the note of Manga that I started in two paragraphs previous, I've been going through onemanga, (great place for free manga and finding popular mangas without having to pay for them), and I've found that there's been so much added since I started reading, that I need to go through the manga list all over again. It's a pain in the ass, but it's good, because some of my tastes have changed, and therefore, the types of mangas that I like to read has too. Now, some of you are asking, "What is manga?" Manga is basically a japanese form of comics. The styles differ greatly from American comics: to which I am thoroughly grateful, not everyone wants beefed up Marvel all the time.
Some particularly good mangas that I've read/am up to date with are:
One Piece, Gokusen, Worst, Naruto, Code Breakers, Katekyo Hitman Reborn, Bakuman, 1/2 Prince, 13, Diamond no Ace, Addicted to Curry, Kuroshitsuji, Are You Alice, AIKI, Fairy Tale, Chocolate, Dance in the Vampire Bund, Dr. Rurru, Deadman Wonderland, Family Compo, Franken Fran, Ga-Rei, GinTama, Saiyuki Reload Blast, Bleach, Akaboshi Ibun Suikoden, Kekkaishi, Toriko, and Air Gear. These are the few that I have the time to type up.
Talk to you later with more on the subject of Anime and Manga~ Lauren Here's the link to onemanga for those of you who are interested. http://www.onemanga.com
SO, it's been far too long since I've written here. Life's been a bit busy.
Basically I've gotten sick, injured, and slightly more clumsy. I've been sword fighting with some of my friends for about two years now, and I've definitely improved. It's become one of my more treasured hobbies. Sure, I may be female, but I can give one hell of a swing!
On youtube, some of my friends and I take videos of us sparring, and it is mostly for fun,but apparently we've been gaining in popularity: it's kinda cool. In the most recent episode, I brought my friend Corrine into the group and we all boxed. Now, normally VT (Violence time, as the ancients call it: we have a new name:Odyssey of the Suburban Blades )sword fights with bokken (wooden swords) and shinai (bamboo swords), so boxing was a special treat. I hope that we'll be having more of this, because I surely enjoyed it.
Now, some of the guys have been doing VT for years, but I'm sort-of but not-really new. Not that it really matters, of course.
Some of the 'weapons of choice', shinai, have been broken. George, one of the founders of VT, wanted to burn the broken shinai. I, on the other hand, wanted a shot at fixing them up for temporary use. And so, Tigerlily was born. Tigerlily is the second shinai to come into my possession, and she's been doing excellently. Duct tape really does wonders!
Well, sadly to say, this will be all for now: I am quite tired. Night~
I've been sick for the past week or so...again, and I've been living off of pomegranates, ramen and Lord of the Rings: the movies, fan-fics, and the books.
I dunno why, but these things tend to be comfort-foods for me. Well, not just LotR, but all books, although it tends to be difficult for me to read recently. I just have been too into the fanfiction world,sadly enough. I'm finding that I want smut with all of the amazing details and character depth and innovative plot of areal breathing novel!
I only expect a certain level of interest from these authors, sadly to say,because I am biased into believing that older books normally have better vocabulary and it's not always true, but it's what I've been inclined to believe.
We've been doing a lot of construction at my house, and so I've been trying to recover from this bad cold with clanking,sawing and other loud noises at all hours. And to make things worse, I live right near a rail-road line, so I have to listen to their racket whenever they decide to fix the line. (I've gotten used to the regular train sounds.
I've also been lending out books to friends for the first time in years. I'm a book-hoarder. I hate lending books because they never are treated with the same amount of reference that I;d give them. That, and they always come back with a new stain, or a chew-mark, or folded corners. You have to understand,that when I lend books out,now,I don't expect them back or if I do, I don't expect them to come back in any good condition, so I only lend books that I'm not very attached to.
This all may sound very crazy to people who aren't really interested in books and like to spend their time doing other things, but for me, if you treat a book badly, it speaks volumes about your character. Especially if the book doesn't belong to you and you return it in a bad state. Even if what you borrowed wasn't a book and you gave it back in a used state, It's common courtesy to treat other people's things in a nice manner: better than your own.
The title is a quote from one of my favorite bands: Live. Song title: Hero of Love.
Anyways, my New Year's eve was amazing, I couldn't have asked for more. Good company, dancing, alcohol-induced bliss, food, and a night apart from my parents. Normally I get sick either right before on on new year's, but this year I lucked out and got sick the day after, haha. Talk about luck.
I have been thinking about new year's resolutions,and have been wondering if it's even worth it. Sure, I try to change myself or do the right thing all year, but making a list can't hurt. It's only a once a year thing to do anyways.
~clean my room totally ~keep said room clean for more than a month straight ~get a job ~continue college ~dress better ~be happy
Sounds good for starters.
On another note, I've been sick for the past few days: fever, congestion, sore throat, etc. Cold symptoms. And I've been messing around with some food ideas.
For a warm drink, jello mix without the cold water. It's really sweet, but also really good~
With soups,Ramen in particular, it's really good if you add a little pepper and oregano for spices,dice up some carrots and some broccoli. If you feel inclined,m you can add chicken. I have as weird habit of adding rice to soup once I've eaten the original noodles first.
Combining honey with french fries is also pretty good, that or a frosty and fries. It's really unhealthy, but it's so good! The salty and sweet combination's surprisingly tasty.
Also, putting cinnamon in coffee is really good. A lot of people forget that cinnamon is in a lot of coffee (not to mention chai tea) and they don't even know half the time that it's in most of the coffee that you buy.
Alrighty, so let's just say that things have been getting to me more than usual because of a lack of patience. Well, a better phrase would be that all of my patience and time for thought has been greedily sucked up by a sponge. Now I'm finding that a lot of things annoy me, a lot more than I previously thought.
For one: baby-talk. I can understand that talking in a soft tone and saying sweet nothings is nice, sweet, and even on occasion cute, but when you sound like a moron, I believe that there's where the line should be drawn. Do people even notice that they're trodding on their own pride? I understand that it's used on babies and small cats etc, but tome it sounds like the grating of fingernails on a chalkboard: not only does it sound atrocious, but it feels that way too!
Hypocrisy is like a disease: it spreads through your body like a virus that slowly takes over your whole system until you're nothing but a living contradiction. Sure,it's something that's almost impossible to erase from yourself, but you could at least try. I'm not a pristine example of a perfect person, but at least I'm trying. If you're going to tell somebody to not do something, or to do something differently, then you might as well make a good example and do it yourself first.
Trust Issues are always a problem, but has anyone ever thought about why they're there? I tell my mom that I have these trust issues, and she laughs, shoves them aside and belittles them down to "she's over-reacting again'. I don't over-react unless it's something extreme: she doesn't want to see the shambles of a childhood gone wrong.
Ordering instead of asking. Sure, it's polite to ask, and it's childish to demand, but has anyone ever stopped to consider how society's gone down the drains? We're taught to demand things,children expect their parents to take care of them until they die, and even then, they expect their inheritance to take care of them after the fact as well. We have become a selfish society that's driven by greed, but then again, we're people and people are driven by wants and needs.
Immaturity in someone much older is something that's sad to see, especially if it's someone close to you. What's even more sad is if that person doesn't realize their own level of immaturity in certain areas and preaches of their own perfection. Ironic, ne?
Whining is annoying to everyone universally. There's no doubt about it. There's only levels of tolerance. I have no tolerance for this at all, and I'm kind of proud of it. Whining gets you nowhere, it just is making something that's already obvious more obvious and just annoys everyone around you. If the people around you cared enough or could do something about it, they would have: so shut up already!
So,I've been eating way too much healthy food again,so I decided to indulge in one of my favorite foods: Ramen. This morning I had some Sapporo Beef flavored ramen and a pomegranate for breakfast. Odd combo,fruit and soup for breakfast!
This Christmas Eve, I plan to go to my grandfather's house (the usual) and eat dinner/dessert there with some of the family. Then, as tradition dictates, when my parents and I get home, we'll open up our stockings and then sleep. In the morning we'll open the rest of our presents like good little kids. After that, then comes the cooking craze that only ends at dinner time: yes, we cook all day. That's at least what we do at my house.
So the heater somehow broke over the past few days,and now the house is at 60 degrees Fahrenheit and it feels a lot colder than it really is. Later on today the repair-man's going to come and fix it. Hopefully he'll have a happy holiday too!
Apparently my parents aren't the only crazy people to baby-talk to their cats. My uncle and aunt go"A-woo-woo-woo Bailey fell down!" and then Bailey rolls over. My other uncle slaps his thigh and his cat jumps on his lap and climbs on his shoulders like a vulture. My dad is by far the silliest when it comes to baby-talking cats, in my opinion. He's 6'1" tall and he's a big guy, so it's especially humorous when he makes a fool out of himself in that fashion. He picks up my cat, cradles her like a baby and talks sweet nothings in the form of "You're such a stupid cat, yes you are!" And whenever he cooks food, he always makes a little something for her or teases her with "Do you want some kitty-cheese? Yes, want some kitty-cheese?" I, when I'm not dying with the stupidity I see everywhere, am getting really tired of the baby-talking. Baby-talking in general makes me want to throw small babies across the street into oncoming traffic, scrape the dead thing up off the ground and then throw it like a frisbee.
Why hello again. I've recently been having a lot of luck with my sleeping schedule,thank god. I've finally been able to sleep at night instead of during the day. PHEW, that took a while.
On another note: yesterday I went for a nature walk in a reservation in New Providence with my aunt, and we ran into this beautiful woodpecker. It was black and white with a little red plumage on the top of the head. I still have to find out which type of woodpecker it is in particular, but I'll find out eventually (I have a large number of bird/nature books that are more than adequate). The trail that we went on was snow and ice covered, and it was obviously cold, especially since we left when the sun was starting to set.
I really had a good time. I used to go for nature walks and hikes all the time, but over the years, my parents (who usually were the ones who took the initiative in taking me), are starting to get older and their health isn't what it used to be. they're in their early fifties and my mom has some heart problems. Usually when I go on ventures outside, I bring back some memento, like a feather, bug shell, or interesting leaf for her if she wasn't there. This time there wasn't any little thing to bring back and I forgot my camera home on my couch, typical, eh?
Yesterday, my aunt was dancing in my car to some of my music, which of course, made me laugh. Florence and the Machine was the artist. I love their music: the lyrics are so unique. You normally wouldn't think of putting that descriptive collection of words together, and their descriptions make very interesting comparisons and symbolism that I haven't seen before (and I am very well read). My favorite song of theirs is called Howl. That song is about a werewolf, or if you want to take a more philosophical view: about the inner beast that we all have locked away. I can't seem to get enough of them, it's kind of amusing.
I'm kind of the scrooge in my family because everyone else gets into the holiday mood a while before Christmas, and here I am,blasting rock music or whatever I'm listening to instead of listening to the Christmas music that my parents have on. I wait until the day before Christmas to get excited: today.
By the way, I tried this new tea today, called Hibiscus tea, also known as Rosen tea. It is very light and aromatic and sweet. In my cup,it was a 'rose' color, so it's aptly named Rosen tea. It's quickly becoming one of my favorites.
For some reason, whenever I have slightly sugared strawberries for breakfast,the rest of the day seems that much better. Maybe it's those chemicals in strawberries that are in chocolate and pepperoni...not sure.
I've been slowly adding music to my music library for a while; a lot more recently than I have been in , and now it's slowly growing into a monster! I love it though, because that means that my playlists will truly be something fearful to behold. The most recent addition to the library is Depeche Mode. Now a lot of people listen to a song by DM and think that it's something below them or that it's 'techno'. Those people really don't know what's up. If you listen to the lyrics,you'll find out that most of the songs have a deeper meaning than just what they're proclaiming. If you're in a thoughtful or philosophic mood, this stuff's the music you want to listen to!
As for sleep, I was dying yesterday,and I finally got an hour at five or so, and then at seven, I didn't wake up till eleven. And at eleven pm, I just checked the clock, turned off my alarm and then went back to sleep till 6:50 am. Now that's a buttload of sleep for somebody who has trouble sleeping. I feel awesome right now. A little cold, but awesome. Correction...very cold!
Also, many people say that eggs and cheese are a nasty combination. I, on the other hand love it! Just easy-over eggs and cheese mixed gently in a bowl. Sure, it looks nasty, but the flavors are awesome! On that note- time for some breakfast!
Apparently I'm boring because all I talk about is sleep. Even the ads on the side and the bottom of the blog are about sleep and insomnia and snoring. Who would have thought that one comment about a snoring cat would have created such an occurrence.
Just a warning for those that are underage or do not want to see foul language. There is one usage of a foul word later on. Excuse me.
Time for some rambling: -Running on 2 hours of sleep -Inspiration overload still is continuing -Probably failed my Italian final -The people I came to school today to see are not here. -I'm really starting to wonder about my sanity and those of my relatives.
So, running on two hours of sleep for about three days is quite interesting. It's like I'm on a high, without all of the negative affects of doing drugs or alcohol: it's only shortening my life,just like the pollution I'm breathing in every second. Awesome.
Inspiration overload's still fueling my raging insomnia, and I know that a lot of other people deal with insomnia too, it's fin on occasion, but mostly it's very annoying and in some cases dangerous and hurtful. I feel like a shell of numbness with some minor places of feeling left. As you can prolly tell, my writing and cognitive ability's atrocious at the moment.
My grandmother just called me demanding to know what I want for christmas. She doesn't have a lot of money, and I have no clue what to ask for. Every year I go through this dilemma and still I haven't found a solution. I told her that I could always use some clothing, and pencils. I told her a couple of clothing stores that I would want a gift card from and that way she can decide how much to put on them, and mechanical pencils don't cost too much,since she wants me to be able to open up an actual gift when I see her.
I prolly failed my Italian final, but I can't bring myself to really care about it, despite the fact that I paid good money to fail a course that doesn't have anything to do with what I'll be doing with my life. My parents yelled at me last night that I'd better get an A on this test because they didn't see me studying. I'm paying for the classes, I'm 20 years old, and I am tired of them forcing their ideals and goals on me.I don't know if they've ever thought about it, but I have goals that I want to get accomplished in my life too.
The people I want to see at school aren't here. My ex,who I'm probably in love with, doesn't show up except on Thursdays. It's kind of sad that I'm in love with this guy. It's not the typical 'he broke up with me so I'm sad' deal, it's more along the lines of 'He doesn't have money to stay in the state,so he has to move at least ten states away when his mom is moving.' So here I am, hurting for weeks, when he doesn't even know if/when his mom is moving,and breaks up with me so we'll be friends... I've talked to some of my friends who are guys,and they tell me that he did it for himself, so that if he has to leave,it won't be as difficult for him. I don't know. I don't know.
And the whole sanity thing: that's a daily occurrence. I don't really care if I'm crazy, I just care about hurting those around me that I care about. I wouldn't want to do that.
I look around the cafeteria that I'm in, at the college, and I see a bunch of people that I am, in general, fond of. Then again, some are just creepers. I just got hugged and kissed on the cheek by a stubble-chinned friend of mine that I can't stand half of the time because I helped him study for a final and now he has confidence that he did really well on it. Good luck you you! I also look around, once again at this crowd in the cafeteria, and I see two friends of mine running out of the cafeteria to talk about some new development in some drama. Normally I'm right in the middle of said drama, helping out both sides,but right now I can't give a flying fuck. It's kind of like, I'm tired of helping everyone else out, I need to take a break to take care of myself for once.
Hokay, so for the past few months, I've been having a lot of difficulty getting my 'inner muse' to turn on, and I was unable to write or draw or really enjoy any of the hobbies that involved creativity at all. Suddenly, yesterday, I'm unable to sleep yet again, and I get this powerful urge to draw. So I take out my wacom tablet and hop on Corel Painter Essentials 3 and drew. It was like these drawings flew out of my brain but traveled through my spinal column, down my arm and out my fingers! Then, still unable to sleep, I start downloading music, and find that I'm in the mood to write.
So here I am, at five in the morning, no sleep to be found, listening to music while writing poetry and sipping some hot tea. I really should be studying for an Italian final that's this Thursday, but I have the feeling that my A.D.D. will just override and my hands will inch towards the wacom pen and my laptop.
Oh, hello there: how remiss of me. I forgot to introduce myself. And here I am, thinking that you all really care about me and my sleeping problems. My name is Lauren, and I'm a 20 year old college student that's trying to get some kind of goal for her life. I write poetry and short stories, draw, play sports, love to cook and eat food, listen to music, among many other things. I'm an only child and it's not that much fun, really. Enough about me for now, you'll find more out later.
Last night I was working on some poem, and I hear this light snoring noise. I look around because nobody else was around, and nobody in my family snores that loudly that I'd hear them from the first floor. I look around, and find the culprit: my cat. Who would've thought that cats snore too? It's kind of outrageous to even think that animals can't snore, but it's not like you get to see them sleeping all the time,right?
I've also been in the mood to cook recently. I've lost too much weight recently, and I know a lot of people would envy my position, but it's not as good as it sounds. So, I've been eating fatty foods and high-calorie foods while still working out as per usual. So far, my weight's stayed the same. We'll see if my weight continues to go down. If it does, then I'll have to get it checked out, because I've lost almost thirty pounds without trying over a few months. That can't be healthy.
Also, about Christmas. I know a lot of us celebrate Christmas by giving gifts even if we aren't religious, but I was wondering if the traditional home-made gifts are under-appreciated lately. Sure, I don't know what I'd do without my laptop or Ipod, but I really treasure some of the hand-made gifts that I've received over the years. My mom made a hat and gave it to me one year as part of a gift, and it's one of my favorite hats! It's this blue crocheted wonder, and it's incredibly soft. So this year, I thought that I'd crochet my mom a scarf and hat combo. Sounds easy, right? Well, I've done scarves before: so that wasn't a problem. The hat is what I'm finding more difficult. I was thinking that I'd crochet a large square, connect one pair of ends and sew the side and top together. Prolly will look outrageous, but hey, it's my first hat! I was wondering if you guys were making anything for somebody special.
Before I go, here's one of the poems that I wrote this morning at about 3am. Can you tell it's about a relationship? Haha.
